I love the drama.
My first serious boyfriend is now going out with one of my friends. Even though it was 2 years ago, it ended well, and we’re friends now, it’s still weird. Very very weird. I thought I’d be alright with it but truth be told, it makes me very uncomfortable. I don’t like seeing them together at all. Am I a horrible person? Shouldn’t I just be happy for two of my friends?
Tonight I keep thinking about what would happen if Alex cheated on me. I know he won’t but I keep thinking that one day, some girl at a club will just jump on him, or some girl will keep chasing until he gives in.. I know he never ever would intentionally do that but I kind of daydream about how angry I’d be, how I’d get to break down, slam the phone, scream in his face..